Paige!

Well, this weekend I officially had a person come up and visit me here at CMU. I am so very happy to say it was my dear and old friend Paige! She is so wonderful and it was definitely really good to see her, and show her my world. We have known each other since about seventh grade and have seen each other grow into the people we are now and it was really nice to show off my place where I call home now.

We had lots of adventures, giggles, hugs, and even squeezed some yoga in there.

Broken People

In Yoga this week we are learning about the Anahata chakra. In the yoga practice this chakra is the center of the chakras. A quick little summary of this chakra is that it deals with love, and the body area of this lesson is your heart. We were challenged in class to look deep into our thoughts this week and ask ourselves, "What do YOU need?", the main lesson of this week is to really understand and believe that what you need as a person is important. Going from class today I was thinking about a few things. Recently I have been noticing a lot of people around me are broken. Now, not really bones that are broken, but people with broken souls. I know it sounds like the making of a sappy song, but it's what I have observed. I have a tendency to want to love too much, and focus on taking care of others rather than taking care of myself. Lately, that is exactly what I have been doing. I go out of my way to be available to others whenever they need and or want and will dismiss what I need or what at the time. I do not mind dismissing my needs for others, doing so actually makes me feel better about myself in a weird twisted way. I can know a person just for a few days and will go into care giver mode and bend over backwards to make them feel better about whatever is going on in their lives. I have always been sort of a sponge in the sense that if one is sad, I will be sad, or if one is happy I will be happy, and so on and so forth. I get so caught up in the fact that I need to take care of the others around me, I forget about my needs. I tend to give out more than I receive and then find myself feeling unworthy when I receive same attention I give to others.

SO here I am writing this post in order to take ownership of what I need to do, and maybe I will actually do it if I tell the internet world what I need to do. (hopefully ha ha)

What I need to do is:
*Be good to myself and do what makes me happy.
*Do not let other people's sadness rub off onto my joy.
*I need to look for love and happiness in people who are also looking out for me too, and won't be selfish and only take what is given to them, but give back as much as they take. No more of this one way street business.
*Know I am worthy of having someone take care of me,and looking out for my best interests.

This is going to be a really hard thing for me to do, but I really need to take ownership of this part of who I am, and do something about it that will better myself. With this entry, not only have I noticed that a lot of people are broken and I have this weird habit of taking care of people that are broken, but I have noticed that I am a little broken too, and I need to find people and let people take care of me more than I take care of them. I am not sure any of this blog post makes sense, but if you take away one of my many crazy brain thoughts today, it's the fact that we all are a little broken, and we all deserve to be taken care of, not taken advantage of.

namaste.

If you call yourself a music lover...

Listen to this song.

Oh the good world of music never fails.

Guess what today is!

As I enjoy my first cup of coffee, listening to some fine tunes of Jimi Hendrix on this fine morning, I wanted to post a quick little entry because well... today is Tuesday everybody!

What does that mean you ask? That means I will venture so very far to main street in Grand Junction (all 1.1 miles) and go take a class at The Yoga Academy and get my yogurt on. I often refer to yoga as yogurt, because it's just a goofy thing my best friend Paige and I did in high school AND speaking of PAIGE she will be HERE, as in MY HOME, in 2 DAYS!

Happy Yogurt Day and almost Paige day! Meep!

my life recently in pictures.

I fell in love with a city.

I still am in love with trees.

My new love, my camera.

Pretty People= Pretty Pictures!

I'm on top of the world.

Well hello strangers. It's been awhile and to be honest, I really wish I would have kept up with this online journal more, but thankfully I have been writing in my wonderfully handy dandy real journal, which just has something special about it.

Since December...

I am #1. Obviously I put my friends and family up there too, but overall I am doing things that will make me happy, and doing that really is making me live my life differently. Saying yes to things I never thought I would do and then actually doing them is a really satisfying thing, I will have you know.

I am adventurous! Who knew? I was given the opportunity to go explore Chicago and to be honest, that trip changed my life. I went by myself, wandered around with my family who live in the city and even got lost in the big city on my own. I have this new perspective that I can do anything I want to and that life will work out the way it's supposed to after that trip, my lifestyle is different because of it.
I will be living in Chicago at some point in my life. End of story.

I have really found things I love to do, and I do them. I love to paint, I love listening and finding new music, I go to yoga and am learning about the practice and all that it has to offer, I am smiling and laughing without caring how big of a goon I can be. I am in a pottery class, and I am conquering the art of wheel throwing. There is something really therapeutic about getting clay in every nook and cranny of your life and knowing that clay turned into something really neat.

I am a proud owner of a new camera! I got the Cannon t3i rebel... and let me tell you, BEST THING OF MY LIFE. I am so excited to post some of the sweet pictures I have been taking.

Moral of this entry, is do what you love, and don't care what people think. It's worth it. Adventure is out there people, and I think you all should take that step and explore all that life has to offer.